You always get your chance
One chance to say how you feel
It either goes good or bad
Not much to worry about
One could think

I hate you
I love you
It's too confusing
I don't know how to feel
I don't know how to respond
To this cold shoulder you have given me
I know I deserve what I get
I know I used up all my chances

But it doesn't feel real
It doesn't feel...normal
It feels like a bad dream
I can't wake up

The tears fall every day
I look at you
Knowing you won't look back
It's safe
I know I won't make eye contact

I'm afraid of what this has come to
I hate you so much
I love you so much
You are the first thing I think of when I wake up
You are the last thing I think of before I sleep
I dream about you all night long
You are on my mind of every second of every day
But no matter what
You manage to stay away
I hate you, I hate you, I hate you
I love you, I love you, I love you

My mind is going crazy
I'm way to young for this
Please, stop this madness
I cry every night
Knowing nothing will change
Nothing will ever change now
But everything changed before

Everyone sees sorrow in my eyes
There's
A fake smile
A fake laugh
But they see it
They know--they pretend they don't once I say
"I'm okay"
But worry anyway

But I'm selfish
I don't care about them
I only want
I only want
To be loved in return
It's a dream
A far off dream

I can't take this anymore
I'm going
C
R
A
Z
Y
Without

you

I can't throw this away
Not today
Not tomorrow

"I know it'll hurt you when I say this, but.."

I listen to these words pour out of her mouth. She's my trust. I know she is.

"..You will always be in love with--"

I end it right there. I know I will. I promised I would.

"Time to break some promises, help me. Help me.
H
E
L
P

M
E
"

I say slowly. She shakes her head. I don't want to cry anymore. I know I'm selfish. I'm done being nice. I'm done holding it in. I'm reaching out for help. My arm dangles to no relief.

This is the end.

I'm done.

It's over.

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